She's In Denial.

31 October 2005

For those who know who I hate the most right now, YES. It's him.

I can't believe it. He is turning 17 this year, but still act like a small little kiddo. GROSS. It is definitely an understatement by describing him as unsophisticated. The only word which i can associate with him right now is 'childish' - utterly childish. ohmigod.

He is the only person i know who thinks that TyPinG tHiS wAy Is ExTrEmElY cOooLL! And pls, at least 'aLL' looks freaking better than 'AlL'. It's common sense.

He is the only person i know who laughs at puerile jokes and finds every childish acts of his bastardy friend funny. And you know what? Both of them end up looking retarded, laughing and repeating the acts over and over again.

He is the only person i know who enjoys acting 'angmoh' with his bogus slang, which includes a large quantity of Singlish that is beyond recognition to typical Singaporeans; only his species, sadly to say, understands him.

He is the only person i know who truly enjoys acting 'cool' by portraying a rebellious image in front of everyone but is actually a mummy's boy; and by acting 'angmoh' too. This, disgust me totally. What a poser. PUKE. Maybe he snugs under his mum's blanket every night for a sense of security.

He is the only person i know who is highly complacent, even without succeeding in any field. He relies greatly on others, and at the same time, showing how incompetent he is. Try showing him an easier way out and you can see him dashing towards the route without a single thought. Give him a candy and you are dead. He will surely go to you again for his dose of sweet intakes, and before you know, your whole carton of candy is gone - with a quick POOF.

There are obviously more than i can say. But no matter what, the conclusion remains.

You know, i know.

That's enough.

He is the worst.

Left`alone
10/31/2005 01:10:00 PM™

30 October 2005

What a morning.

Early in the morning, and i do mean EARLY, there's this stupid-irritating-gross-disgusting-freakkkking beatle flying around and IT decided to fly near me. AHHHHH! Right. That's my reaction. This had definitely plunged my luck down to the bottom of the ~~pit~~ hell.

Mid morning. I nearly had a car crash. I was in my uncle's car, with his whole family. The journey was smooth initially. But this particular car stopped abruptly, causing the car directly in front of us to crash into it. My uncle's fast reflex saved the whole family. =x He swifted to the other lane almost immediately. Can you imagine?? If he hesitated for 1sec, we would all be... OMG. Unfortunately, the taxi behind us crashed straight into the pile.

hell.

Maybe im lucky. Lucky enough not to have any cars on the other lane.

But no, im not.

I din't study at all, again.

SHIT. someone, study plssssss??!

Left`alone
10/30/2005 05:43:00 PM™

29 October 2005

A very happy birthday to Henry.

Do you know what happen when you try to delete most of the photos from your thick photo album in your digicam?

The battery goes flat before you can delete those unwanted photos.

That's what happen to me and it was like WTF.

Studied with Mich and the 2 forever-late-comers, Yanisa and Daniel. opps.

SS is boring. Always.

Btw, we went to mac and i had my fav yogurt. Nice and, well.... delicious. hahaaa

Shall not elaborate. There nothing much to do so.

Just see the photos. lah.

Waited for Ty to end his work at 9+ since im at Mp too. Then, off to home. =)

Study. I studied.

And few minutes later, Mich showed me her wallet.

Then, back to study.

Got sleepy once in a while.

SS? ss. =.=

When studying got too boring, a photo-taking session was held.

Back.

*tsk tsk* The writing continued.

Someone needs a break.

Daniel tried to study. But unfortunately...

He got interested in straws after a few secs under the influence of Yanisa.

Yanisa was hardworking, with star-making. And LOOK AT DANIEL! He's talking.

I couldn't help but to give a 'diaoooo' face.

A better understanding now? =x

Left`alone
10/29/2005 03:59:00 PM™

27 October 2005

It's 100%. That i will fail my Physics.

Hell. hell. HELL!

But nvm. I give up.

Went to meet ty after my practical. Just walked around Tampines central over and over again before settling down in Mac to get some study done. Im the only one who's studying la. Someoneeeee don't have to study anymore. So unfair. =x

Btw, the yoghurt there is nice, and i love it.

Tired la. Tml then update.

LOL. My childhood photos nice right. =D

And, Im determine to work super duper hard for my o'lvl.

REMIND ME.

MOTIVATE ME.

ENCOURAGE ME.

And lastly,

someone pls help me.

Smile always.

Left`alone
10/27/2005 08:12:00 PM™

Im curious to know who my readers are. haha.

Maybe you can leave a msg.

Don't let my curiousity kill me. BOO.

How cool is it to have physics practical later on and the physics textbook is still lying somewhere in my bookshelf?

Even up till yesterday night I reckon that there's nothing worth studying for physics practical. I should be thankful that Shangli mentioned something about studying the ray diagram when he finally came after making us wait so freaking long for him. But, but. I went to sleep instead of studying.

No choice.

Tired. Tired and Tired.

So, I have to study now.

haha.

Luckily Im in the 3rd shift. And I get to go home straight after my practical! Too bad for the 1st and 2nd. =x

MAKE SOME NOISES, PEOPLE!

Thankyou.

Left`alone
10/27/2005 09:39:00 AM™

26 October 2005

Can you believe it??

I nearly doze off in the bus.

Went to study with Mich and Yani at Marine Parade again.

Just study and study all the way.

And my shoulders hurt all the way too.

Nothing much to blog.

Maybe there'll be more tml.

Ok. Btw you-know-who.

I din't disappoint YOU right?

Im here to blog how gooood you are.

Thanks a lot.

Left`alone
10/26/2005 09:48:00 PM™

If you are a regular reader, you would definitely remember.

THERE GOES.

MY CUTE CHILDHOOD PHOTOS.

pls. No, never, NEVER a guy look-alike.

Trust me.

Ready??

Looooook carefully. IM WEARING A SKIRT! I know, my hair is short and... kind of sparse. But still Im a girl. Btw, my hair resembles lion's mane right now. =x And i have to constantly visit the salon to have my hair thinned. HAHA. Must be because of the bota-ness when im a toddler.

Look at my CUTE pose. I love to listen. Be it cacophony or pleasant music. =D

And obviously, I love to bite. HAHA. and and and, im still cute.

I love gigantic presents too. Just look at my smile. haha. Take a closer look. MY HAIR!! =x

This is clear. I hate to get disturbed. =x No one can ever force me out of that small toddler playhouse. PSs. Im wearing a dress too. Can't u see?? im a GIRL.

Another cute pose. agree???!! I just adore this photo. You can see my cute and adorable face! haha. Alright. This pose is kind of weird. But so what, im still wearing a DRESS.

And here goes my Trademark smile. =D

This is the only photo with my brother, which i did smile for the camera. Im just too naive then. You can sense it. Sense his hostility too. He looks like a tyrant. agree?

He is. I agree.

Look!! Im playing that 'boing boing and boing' BOING. And i love that smile. =D Pss. skirt too. look closely.
Im a 100% girl.

And this THIS THIS is the one that caused all those commotion. LOL. can u spot me in the first place? haha. btw, tell me. Which precise angle makes u think that i looooook like a BOY?

Im such a lovely girl! HAHA.

Now.

Are you convinced???

you better say yes.

YES.

What a day. Shall not elaborate. =x Btw, don't u ever dare to prank me with beetles. I WILL definitely chase after you with parangs and super glue, making sure that all the beetles stick to your skin until nobody can recognise who the hell you are.

My imagination is also the best in the world. =D

Left`alone
10/26/2005 01:02:00 AM™

24 October 2005

I did nothing today.

Just sleep, sleep and SLEEP.

Chemistry Practical tml. Wish me good luck.

Left`alone
10/24/2005 05:44:00 PM™

Im enjoying myself recently.

Studying with friends, going out, and even walking aimlessly, I love them all.

Really miss out a lot in the past when Im so occupied with that hell. But nvm. I will catch up!

Trust me.

Was out just now. Shall not elaborate cause nothing much happened except getting lost and walked all the way from bugis to novena. =x In another words, we're heading North-west instead of East. hahaaa. But still, with my superb sense of direction, we managed to get to novena station. hehhh.

OK LAH. Im bragging.

The fact is that I don't want him to waste his money on cab. So i insisted on walking to the next bus stop to check whether there's any bus that would bring both of us back to Tampines, btw there ain't any empty cab, so no matter what we still had to walk. And after by-passing soooo many bus stops, we reached United Sq and the big big NOVENA sign came into sight.

heh.

And i reached home on the dot. 12midnight.

Was on my way to the bathroom in my parent's room just now and saw my dad sleeping on the floor. Must be because of that kajiao incident earlier on.

LOL.

Oh ya. After starring at the photos in my previous post, I suddenly remember that during the 5 days in Genting, I actually lost 2kgs. =x haahaaa.

Whatever.

I love my friends.

I love my pipa girls.

I love myself.

I love everyone who love me.

Lovely eh?

Left`alone
10/24/2005 12:26:00 AM™

23 October 2005

Here goes...

She's my darling senior. Someone who guided me through.

These are the days in Genting where everything seem so great.

And fun too.

This, previous me. Right before a performance.

And the group photo. On the same day.

Of course, there's loads more. I love them all.

Left`alone
10/23/2005 05:02:00 PM™

My parents are so interesting.

Early in the morning...

Mum to Dad: Why in the middle of the night u kajiao me. Turn here turn there. You wake me up you know!

Dad to Mum: I can't get to slp what.

Noon...

Mum to Dad: Oi why u sleep on the sofa~

Dad to Mum: I sleeping on the sofa nv disturb u! why u come kajiao me?!

Mum to Dad: Cuz I can't get to slp what.

HAHAHA. =x

I've nothing to do right now. Bored.

LOL. study anyone?

Im broke.

Penniless.

Un-rich.

Poor.

Whatever.

Left`alone
10/23/2005 02:36:00 PM™

Enjoying this song?? Hope so.

The previous one is too sorrowful. I shall move on.

Can u believe it? I STUDIED TODAY! hoooooooooorayyy! lol.

Went to get mich's present and my calculator [ at last ] with wc before going Bk to study. Nothing much actually. Just, study and study. haahaa.

Someone got to do something for his AOlvl maths. =D

Bus-ed down to mp after that to meet mich, yani, daniel and rui. Tiring like hell. So sleepy =x

Starbucks is like tooooooo full for us to squeeze in.

Decided to go Parkway instead.

Nothing much. haha.

Im tooooooo tired to elaborate la.

Walked all the way to East Coast Park after that. Alone. haha

Apparently someone got lost there. =x

But clever me managed to locate him. hohoho.

I've nothing else to say.

To WC: im POOR.

Left`alone
10/23/2005 12:26:00 AM™

22 October 2005

寂寞的季节

歌手：陶喆
专辑：乐之路1997-2003

风吹落最后一片叶
我的心也飘着雪
爱只能往回忆里堆叠
oh~给下个季节
忽然间树梢冒花蕊
我怎么会都没有感觉
oh~整条街都是恋爱的人
我独自走在暖风的夜
多想要向过去告别
当季节不停更迭 oh~
却还是少一点坚决
在这寂寞的季节
艳阳高照在那海边
爱情盛开的世界
远远看著热闹一切
oh~我记得那狂烈
窗外是快枯黄的叶
感伤在心中有一些 oh~
我了解那些爱过的人
心是如何慢慢在凋谢
多想要向过去告别
当季节不停更迭 oh~
却永远少一点坚决
在这寂寞的季节
又走过风吹的冷冽
最后一盏灯熄灭
从回忆我慢慢穿越
在这寂寞的季节
还是寂寞的季节
一样寂寞的季节

Left`alone
10/22/2005 11:48:00 AM™

Intensive study today.

2.30pm : studying with wc.

7pm: studying with michie, yaniii and ruii.

Guai??

SAY YES.

Left`alone
10/22/2005 10:29:00 AM™

21 October 2005

Shit. I LOVE my friends.

They're simply the best.

Went to temple in the morning with my parents, cousin and grand mother. Bought a skirt too. There's only 1 interesting incident. LOL.

Singapore is just toooooo small.

Guess what.

I met my dear dear dear neighbour, Henry, on my way home. Oh pleeeease. On bus 23, somewhere FAR FAR FAR away from Tampines. haha. Just happen that he boarded the bus and decided to go to the upper deck. haaaa

And, my mother get to know him through me. =D

Having him beside me was great. He's playing with my cousin btw. haha. Soccer on bus. Hilarious sight. My cousin is just tooo too tooooo playful. But, Henry.. hmmm.. about the same. lol. They had sooo much fun playing together.

=.=''

Btw, Henry called me just now. He's going NS at the end of this year. SOOOO freaking soon.

ah.

I'll miss u.

Seriously.

Went parkway to meet Yanisa and Daniel in the afternoon. Fun fun and fun. =D

Took a lot of photos. Aiyaaa.. just visit Daniel's blog if u want to see them. Mich, Shang and ben joined us later. But mich left at 7. =(

Now i know the difference between my friends and I. Some have curfews, while the others have to report to their parents where they're going or what time they will be back home. As for me, I don't have any of the above.

Dad's sms : Where are u? are u coming back for dinner?? when will u be back??

My reply : Not going back for dinner. Not sure when I will be home.

-The End-

That's all. No more phone calls, no more sms. And when i reach home, both my parents are soundly asleep. Wonderful eh.

Sux. I swear that i will never ever touch Laksa again in my entire life.

My stomach cramped like hell just now, and i could feel that damn tension.

Pathetic eh. Alone in the bus and feel so sick.

I could just puke. =.= but luckily i din't. hoho.

crap.

I feeling sick right now. Fuck that Laksa.

hahaaaaaa..

Left`alone
10/21/2005 11:18:00 PM™

20 October 2005

I had weird, strange, perculiar, spooky, freaky dreams last night.

Take note.

Dreams, not dream.

I forced myself to wake up for the first one.

That dream just freak me out.

Everything in my room seemed to be distorted. The tv, writing table, windows, radio and bookshelf were out of shape. Like those that u would see in circus. I hate it when things are so unnatural, and they usually scare the shit out of me. I rather be chased, killed, murdered or slaughtered in my dreams than be found in some weirdo situations.

And, this is the first time for the scene to be in my house.

All along were my old house, old school or even unknown places. This is funny. I can even confuse myself with my dreams and reality. Hard to explain. Something like when u go to a place you have never been to before but find it familiar. The truth is that u went there in your dreams. =x

Call me a psychic. lol.

I can foresee the future in my dreams. It happened so many times, and I was stunned in the beginning. So when bad dreams related to real life occur, my mood would sink till the bottom.

I can relate the next one to my past. Something unpleasant too.

It's a reason why i despise my brother so much and loathe living in this family.

My parents are biased, especially my mum.

When my brother bullies me and I complain to her, Im always the one who ends up with scolding. It's always me who appeared to be snatching his stuff, disturbing him, creating din and spoilt. The truth was the other way round.

Maybe i should be thankful cause all these had kind of enlightened me.

At primary one, I realised that I had to depend solely on my own to get myself justified.

But i was only a small little kid then and can u imagine how difficult it was for a 7-yr-old kid, with limited vocabulary, to defend herself? I got so frustrated each time i failed to do so and my parents would scold me for being hot tempered. My brother always got away scot-free and I got the blame.

FUCK.

I can't wait to get out of this and be away.

They cannot blame me for this. It's them who started all these.

I haven't speak to him for months, maybe years.

Can you believe that the whole week in Genting last year was the most relaxing time in my life?

I didn't miss anyone back home. No calls, no photos, no nothing. In fact, I don't want any of that.

Now you know why.

Left`alone
10/20/2005 08:12:00 AM™

19 October 2005

I went to school today.

And i'm not going tml. =D

Btw, can u guys just update me with your numbers? I've lost all my contacts. So pathetic now, only left with abt 5 names in my phonebook.

Lessons - boring. Just self-study all the way. Hah.

People taking sub-science are going to have their practical tml. Just wish them good luck.

Geeerrk. I LOOK SO MUCH LIKE A BOY WHEN IM YOUNG. =x

That's what many many people like rui, solo and bla bla bla are saying.

hah. Btw, even my mom also say that i look so much like a boy when i was a toddler.

And, I was so dark that my parents thought the nurse had made a mistake.

wth.

haaahaaa.

At least, i look more like a girl right now.

^^*

Wait.

Wait until i upload my primary school class photos up here and u can laugh your head off.

IT'S HOLIDAY NOW.

lalalalalala.

O'lvl??? OMG!

Left`alone
10/19/2005 05:57:00 PM™

18 October 2005

I skipped school today.

Just don't feel like going.

That's all i have to say for the time being.

Goodbye

Left`alone
10/18/2005 03:14:00 PM™

17 October 2005

This post will be kind of boring if you don't really care about me. =x

I just feel like writing it down, especially when there is melancholy in the wind and sorrow in this song.

All the memories deep down inside me started flashing back. From those in my primary school days to that particular one in secondary 2, and of cause, the recent one.

I'd enjoyed myself with that bunch of basketball freaks when im in p6. We're so united, even when it comes to matches with the class next door. Everyday after school, we would go to the basketball court near school to train, train and train. The opponent was just too strong for us to handle. I remembered cheering on for them with friends during the match. We lost, but what we had gained was friendship. Nobody felt left out in that gang. We supported one another, in every little thing. There was once we decided to skipped school just to play basketball. Ain't that fun? Yes, it is.

And i cried during the graduation party.

Everything seemed so nice then, and i couldn't bear to leave them behind.

But still, I have to move on.

That's how I landed in Ngee Ann.

Secondary 1. In the most hardworking class, unfortunately. People around me seemed to live for the sake of getting good results. Failing a test meant death to them. Try asking them a question when there is a test later on. They would shoot you with a wth-u-come-disturb-me-what-if-i-can't-get-A1 glare. Not all, but most. Marui wasn't one of them, and i loved being with her. She's someone who i can seriously talked to in class. Someone who i could coorporate with in order to cheat in Chinese tests, and someone who i could enjoy a meal of fast food without feeling the guilt of it. She's just, the best.

Secondary 2. Life's different, eversince i knew that guy. He's someone who changed my life totally. He's sweet, cute, caring and bla bla. I fell for him wholeheartedly with his charisma. I could recall the days we spent together vividly, including the quarrels and tears. There's once, we were strolling down the beach. But out of a sudden, his attitude changed - dramastically. I had no idea why. Maybe just mood swing, i thought. From the beach to the bus stop, he didn't speak. He just walked quietly and became hostile suddenly. I had no clue for his actions, and they did scare me. Things were fine after that but still, quarrels became so frequent that everything just came to an end.

He was a sensitive guy, a good point.

At least he would voice out his thoughts.

It's difficult to get over.

He's the one who taught me that 'it takes 2 hands to clap'.

Secondary 3. My life was co co and co. And also, stressed all the way up due to co co and co.

But, I was happy, contented, and enjoying myself.

I got to know people like michie, yanisa, shirui and wq. haahaaa.

The interesting roles in my life.

I love performances and concerts.

Being busy and occupied seems to match me well.

I got to know him too. Shall not emphasize on that.

Everything seemed so sweet and lovely but now, a total 360degree change.

And I sort of lose faith and trust in it.

Maybe, being alone suits me more, and better.

Secondary 4. Still going on.

Recorded daily in my blog right now.

Who knows. One day in the future, when I decide to look back, i will just find those heart aching memories foolish. An act of childishness. Or maybe, something that i shall just mesmerise instead of crying or pondering. After all, it's just parts and parcel of life. I won't be the current me without them, be it good or bad.

I love my life.

I love myself.

I love me.

And lastly,

I love u too, my friends

Left`alone
10/17/2005 06:29:00 PM™

Hey, i din't blog yesterday. Can't blame me for it. I felt so much of a fool waiting foolishly for 30 minutes. Worst still, it was raining like hell. Calls unanswered, messages unreplied. And there wasn't even a message of apology or reason or what-so-ever.

wth.

Purposely huh?

I hate it when i have to walk in the rain. Can you imagine?? All drenched and that stupid thunder was sooooo soooo soooo sudden and loud that it made me jumped.

Call me timid.

I can even cry when a beetle accidentally knock into me.

But don't call me a coward.

At least, I don't say SORRY just to get out of trouble when it's so crystal clear that Im not in the wrong, that's what the BASTARDs are capable of doing.

haha. i shouldn't bring all these up.

lol. But i realised something today.

Both of them, one look like a gigolo, which i seriously think that he actually is, and the other, a totally sissy-gayish look; worse than transexual. heh.

Forgive me for being mean. I do think so, not just because i hate them.

If you still think that they're the most charming and gorgeous persons on Earth and im freaking mean and bad, then.. so what?? I don't really care. =x

Go ahead and tell them all that's here. You will be helping them by doing so.

^^*

School was alright today. Just that the rest of the school do not have to come; we're the pathetic ones. Canteen was so empty. Nothing much to eat. But, we're clever enough to order MacDonald's delivery. =DD

That delivery man was kind of interesting. I bet he thought that the teachers were the ones who ordered the food. haha. Mr Ong had nothing to say. We din't step out of the school! We got the food to be sent to us.

Enjoyed ourselves in the canteen, even though recess was over.

Skipped Geography mock exam. Who cares? =x

aye, the teachers won't be counting those that are not going. It'll be easier for them to count those that are going.

Interesting eh? That's my class, my school.

*feel so proud*

Left`alone
10/17/2005 12:28:00 PM™

16 October 2005

I enjoyed myself full blast today!!!!

How i wish that every weekend will be the same. heh.

Taught my cousin Chinese and English, which ended me up late for the date. But still, nvm. Everything went awfully well. Just that I'd forgotten to bring along my digicam. So, no photo for this entry. How boring... =x

Went Cineleisure to search for my wallet. aiya. Couldn't find any that appeal to me. Shopped and shopped around. lol. I don't understand why Dodo club always assign a male staff to manage the lingerie department. Kind of interesting. She said that it's to attract women there. haha. =.='' Maybe. But upon remembering the sight of Alan in that department.. ermm.. i sort of doubted that reason. *oPPs* Continued to walk around, from the Heeren to Takashimaya. aiya. Tiring la. I still had to carry my bag with boookks in it. Now my whole body is aching like nobody's business. Btw, taka is having a Hello Kitty Fiesta. Everything is soo cute, adorable and most importantly, cheap! YEa.

Im falling in love with hello kitty.

Decided to go Far East to continue our shopping. heh.

So many things have changed. The shops and all. But still remains as a shopping paradise for teenagers. There's soooooo sooo sooooo many items that i wanted to buy!

See. I told u i can spend that amount-of-US$-stated-in-previous-post.

Now u believe eh. =D

Bought a Hello Kitty wallet.

See again! I told u im falling in love with hello kitty. =DD

There's Misha there too. Haha. My Favourite!

Guess what??

2 bottles of nail polish and 1 pink eye liner.

See again again!!

I told u i can.

NOW U BELIEVE??

Bus-ed down to marine parade to study with michiee and rui. It's freezing cold. =x Luckily rui decided to get hot coffee instead of the icy cold ones. heh. I simply warmed my palms with it. =D

Interesting and funny. heh.

Me and mich laughed like hell. And rui was like trying to stop us, not because he's the only sane one but he's the one who caused us to laugh like mad.

aye.

So many things happened. Everything's so fun.

How i wish that my digicam was with me.

Only then i can show u.

hey, remind me to bring my digicam next time. =D

took 31 home. I'm totally worned out. Nearly doze off in the bus. =x First time in my life. heh. I gonna pamper myself now. YUP. Sleep is essential for good skin and healthy body. Do remember to sleep more. ^^*

Let's just be small little piggies.

OINK.

Left`alone
10/16/2005 12:00:00 AM™

15 October 2005

Here i am!

You must be thinking that I'm mad to wake up so early on saturday. Afterall, there is no reason for me to do so.

I yearn to stay in bed too, but after numerous turning and tossing, I've decided to get out of my cosy bed.

It's around 9 now, and I've a date at 1. haha.

with my best friend since my primary school days.

I've no idea what to do now.

Haha. Maybe, go back to sleep.

Left`alone
10/15/2005 08:37:00 AM™

14 October 2005

Im so clueless that i've no idea what to put as title.

And i've been staring at this line for more than 10 minutes.

I feel so stressed up.

o'lvl approaching. stress.

Studies. stress.

Results. stress.

Every single thing around me seemed to be stressing me out.

Including my house.

Whenever i stand up, i'll feel the stress.

Not that i'm tall, but the ceiling is low.

And with that fan attached to the ceiling, i feel even more stressed up!

aye. Im just crapping.

English mock test. I din't get to finish the summary. Hell. This is the first time in my entire life that i never manage to complete my whole English paper 2. stress again. Nothing turned out well. I never complete my SS mock test too. Haha. But it's not the first time. In fact, i nv complete any of my ss tests, not even once in my whole life.

ok.

stress factor reduced. =x

My headache just won't leave me alone.

Gonna study at mp lib tml night with Michie, and shopping with my bestie before that.

I love shopping so much that i can just spend US$123987492162762918374 in 1 hour, provided that i have that sum of money in the first place. heh.

Im not a spendtrift. I'll buy those that i need.

ehh.. Maybe.. even if i don't i will just find a perfect reason for me to have it. ^^*

ain't i great? lol.

Left`alone
10/14/2005 04:45:00 PM™

13 October 2005

I no longer listen to Jiang Mei Qi's songs and sob.

Now, Im listening to Mayday's to get myself motivated.

Wu Yue Tian - Wen Rou.

Btw, my headache is killing me. And there's no more Panadol for me to pop into my throat.

How??

What if i die from headache? LOL.

Im suffering from headache now. really.

Left`alone
10/13/2005 06:25:00 PM™

I had to literally drag myself home.

The numerous hours spent in school fagged me out totally.

What a day..

The guys in my class got kind of insane. Maybe they're trying to relieve stress.

You know what they did?? Rubber band, crushed paper, SHOOT! =.=''

Lockbin was so cute.

Class: Where's the papers??

Mr Tan: *oh yaaaa* I left the papers in my pigeon hole.

Lockbin: *gleee* ASK YOUR PIGEON TO SEND HERE LAA.

hhhaaaaaahhhhhhhhaaaaaaaa.

He's stressed up too. To the extent that he's not in his right mind.

Crystal was funny.

She wrote a composition but misspelled 'weeping' and wrote 'whipping' instead.

The whole compo ended up to be sort of R-rated.

There, another one who's under stress.

Look at my class! Unique eh.

Left`alone
10/13/2005 03:54:00 PM™

12 October 2005

Im sick -- i think so.

>.<

Better mood today. =) At least i never show my foul feelings to anyone.

School was alright. Nothing much happened. But something amazed me somehow. I bet even u would find it unbelievable too.

I got the highest PSLE aggrigate in my class.

HAHAHA. Hurry hug your tummy and laugh out loud. =x

Look at my result nowww!!! IT SUX. >.<>

If im in sub science, things won't be that bad. If im in, Im sure that i can secure at least a B3. But now?? helll.. I got a total of 9 for both my sciences, which mean that none of my sci got a B3 or even B4.

='(

see la.

I feel sick for the entire day. I felt carsick while taking bus home, headache while blogging, and my sensitive nose kept me occupied early in the morning. Plus i have sensitive skin as well. The new facial foam im using caused red patches to surface after i had used them. WTH LA. luckily it's all early in the morning and i looked totally fine after 10 mins. =P

oh ya. Saw Weicong early in the morning at the interchange. haaaaaa! Such a surprise. It's like, nv see him at the interchange for so long. ehhh.. It had been so long since i last took 291 to school from interchange. ok. So it's a surprise for him to see me at interchange. =x

Poor thing la.

He's taking a'lvl at the end of this month.

at least my o'lvl is in mid Nov.

*gleeeeee*

eHH! im still feeling sick.

*PUKE*

>.<

Left`alone
10/12/2005 04:33:00 PM™

11 October 2005

雙手的溫柔 - 江美琪

先別說　先別說　離開我的理由

反正都將是相同的結果

擁抱著　擁抱著　沒開口淚先流

因為我學習著放手

偶而抬頭看天空心還會有一陣陣難過

當我習慣寂寞　才是自由的時候

啊　眼淚安安靜靜的流過

相愛的時候　你說過的話還清晰在耳朵

啊　時光安安靜靜的走過

偶而回過頭　曾經擁抱過的雙手

還留著溫柔

多年後　多年後　也許不再傷痛

當我們已經失去了連絡

可能你　可能我　在不同的角落

依舊吹著同一陣風

Left`alone
10/11/2005 06:31:00 PM™

Im in a total fuck up mood today. Reason? Unknown.

I'd not been in good mood ever since that fuckin bitchhy knn day.

It got worse when someone by the name Emmanuel accidentally hit me with a stupid unknown object.

FUCK LA. =x

I nearly go up to him, grab him by his collar and smack his face until it swell like a balloon. BUT i din't. i MERELY acted as though I'm so kind and gentle, and let it went away.

Luckily, he decided to keep the plates during recess on my behalf. haa. That's it. I forgave him.

Thanks so much to rui who kinda cheered me up by offering me mentos, yanisa and mich for concerning, and emmanuel for sensing my foul mood. =x And yongxian is so innocent to believe rui that Im in bad mood all because i can't get my mayday cd. =.=''

-

IM MUNCHING HELLO KITTY AS MY LUNCH!! lol.

hehhhehh.

And to go with it, i've decided to get a cup of milk as well.

in my 'chicken soup' muggy.

And they ended me up with a SORETHROAT. >.<

-

Just gotten back my report card and hm, it's scary. I don't even dare to show it to my parents. Im just so fortunate that they don't really care about my results and exams. My report card can just rot in one of the corners, silently.

Someday in Aug/Sept..
Mum : eh when's your chi o lvl??
Me : eh.. During Jun holiday. =.=''
Mum : orhh... so take already har?
Me : then? [diaos]

I bet until now, they still don't know what grade i get for my Chinese.
So just forget it. They won't get me anything even if i got a1. =(

-

HEY BASTARD AND YOUR BASTARDY FRIEND, GET OUT OF MY SIGHT CAN?! i shall serve u with my hostility the next time i see u. You should know who u are, cuz when i walk past you in hall today, i kindly reminded u with 'BASTARD SIA'. =D
SO EXTRA.
Freaking hell big size but choose to sit directly at the entrance, blocking the way of others. Seeing your face just disgust me and destroy my wonderful day that is awaiting me.

-

Thanks to Jon too. He told me something which totally makes sense.

I don't really rmb the exact words, but this is the meaning : Don't bother to cry over him cuz he feels nothing at all and don't even care to shed a single tear.

I agree.

But still, things are easier said than done. =)

agree...?

Left`alone
10/11/2005 02:04:00 PM™

10 October 2005

That's the song that keeps on agitating my tears.

He may be bad, he may be a jerk, a bastard, but still, he's part of my memory.

There used to be warmth, although it no longer exist.
It's all silence now.

And my tears continue..

Left`alone
10/10/2005 07:14:00 PM™

Fun day. =D

Designed and drew Daniel's Tee during Geography and recess. Cute la. " kick me, lick me, seduce me" That's what on the back of the tee. But the size is kinda small for Daniel to fit in.. nvm la. he can slim down. :x

Our names on the sleeve.

There's his name on the front, below it is a snowman-cum-chick ?? lol.
Then 'this is a designer tee.' heh heh. Gave him during recess, that's why i don't have a photo of the completed piece. Go ask him la.

Went to have lunch at fish'n'co after school with mich, yanisa, ben, kaiyeong, solo and rui.

Some pics taken on our way there..

Prrrrreeetty michie tying her hair o.0

Yanisaaaa!! smilin'.

Me lookin at don't know what. =.=

Guess what we'd been chatting throughout lunch.

Those sex and horny observations of Human beings, and maybe some animals such as elephants, rhino, dolphins and bla bla. lol.

ONLY me and mich are the normal ones. =)

I enjoy their companion. So touched that i feel like crying right now.. uhh.

Hmm. Mayday cd... =\ Next week!!
HEHHEHH.

Left`alone
10/10/2005 02:06:00 PM™

09 October 2005

My uncle came early in the morning. He's totally crazy over soccer. It's only about 8+ and he's here asking me to check the soccer scores through the internet~. He's fortunate that i woke up at 7+. Must be that coffee yesterday. =x

Went study at Tampines West cc with lihyee at aronud noon. Had my lunch there too, but i din't finish it. The food turned cold and taste as hard as stones after about 1 hr. lol. Why can't they use thermal packaging?? >.<

Great ambience. I shall just study there EVERYDAY.

Went off at about 3. Im tired and sleepy by then. Saw Benjamin btw. He's inside the mac too. Weird. The mac is so small but we can't even notice each other. boo.

My life is back. =D

aiya. Mayday album TML. Can't believe that im getting poorer and poorer.

Ashin is the cutest guy on earth. ^^

Left`alone
10/09/2005 05:36:00 PM™

08 October 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL!!

went starbucks with henry today. It had been ages since i last stepped in. Their menu board had changed, but the soothing ambience remains.

Ordered Rhumba Frappucino and chatted for i think 1 hr+. Nv see him for so long but we can still talk like friends. Nothing feels weird. that's something amazing.. btw, he's my neighbour. =.=

haha. we're bored. =p

heh heh. we're LAME. :x

went around to search for my calculator but can't find it. sad la. Im used to that model.. shat. We decided to go home at around 3+. He's tired la. Slept at 7am and woke up soon after and went starbucks. Im tired too. lol. And wenqi said he saw me at the interchange. So qiaoo..

--

Packed my table when im home. Came across my notebook for 2oo4. all the memories started flashing back like lightning penetrating through air molecules with a zooooom. FuCK. Everything about him came back too. But im glad that i decided to throw it away. =)

" The Cover Page " *clapclap*

" Daily Thoughts " o.0 revolves around the weather though...

" My work " ^.^

" Designed and drawn by me " *applause*

" Some written work " >.<

Found out that he actually changed his friendster profile on that very day. wtf. Can't wait to do so huh.. ='(

Im still like so affected by it. shitty ass.

Decided to delete that Bastard (not that 'him' though) off my friendster. Reason for me callin him that? simple. He's someone who like another girl but decided to be with his current girlfriend because ' she like him'. what a freaking reason. He even bought BOTH GIRLS v-tine day present. He's obviously an unloyal jerk. adding on to that, he even used his girlfriend's money. She just asked him to safeguard the sum of money and that bastard freaking went to spend it! FUCK RIGHT. He's no better than a small white face (xiao bai lian) depending on girls. Who he think he is to fool around with relationship? I hate ppl like this. Him and that bastard. Two of the same kind, just that different pattern, way, method. No wonder always together. fuck.

Whatever. He's just like a piece of shit that should be in the toilet bowl. =x

omg. My day is still fine. =D and i wanna buy mayday's cd. They rawks the WORLD! Nv fail to dig old forgotten memories up. But still, they're nice. How i wish i can write songs of their style. Touching. Beautiful. Forever.

Had no idea why my mind went blank when im holding the album. Just some memories. Maybe because some of the songs is actually inside his mp3.. On freako. Shouldn't mention that.

NO IT'S NOT IN.

He had probably deleted em long ago..

Left`alone
10/08/2005 08:55:00 PM™

Woke up with puffy eyes, again. All due to the crying yesterday night. But im definitely fine now.

ah going out now. update later.

Left`alone
10/08/2005 05:09:00 PM™

07 October 2005

It had been so normal and well in school, but right now at home, it's not anymore. Nobody is here, everyone's out. What i have with me is only those songs that end up agitating my tears. There is so many times in school where i could break into tears today. But i'd managed to control myself. Now i can't.. I'm still a girl afterall...

Left`alone
10/07/2005 06:38:00 PM™

I'd been so foolish all these while. Blindfolded and can't differentiate lies from truth.

IT'S LIES ALL THESE WHILE.

Used to be foolish, but ain't a fool now.

Im glad that it's all over. =)

Im smiling, not crying.

Left`alone
10/07/2005 01:46:00 PM™

06 October 2005

THIS IS MY BLOG. all that i'd written, if it affect you or whatsoever, U CAN KINDLY CLICK THE [X] ON THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER.

I see no point in you bitching about what i'd said to someone else. Especially when you do not know anything about me at all, and of course nuts about my life. You have no rights in assuming things and defaming me.

You don't like me, then go away.

Comment on my blog if you want.

If not, get lost.

The post had been deleted to prevent ppl from bitching around again.

Left`alone
10/06/2005 08:12:00 PM™

~~I can see rays of light now. =)~~

Left`alone
10/06/2005 07:57:00 PM™

I'd returned him all his stuff and passed him a letter this morning. My final..

But nothing changed. His 'don't know' and 'don't-bother-to-reply attitude' remains. Ly encouraged me to persevere. How to when the situation is like this.

I feel so terrible right now.

Left`alone
10/06/2005 05:48:00 PM™

03 October 2005

Monday.. First day of PPP. 2 more weeks to holiday. 1 day nearer to O lvl... >.<

First lesson was English. haha. Have no idea why i seem to enjoy English lessons. Obviously it's not because of my English teacher. She had this weird looking necklace around her neck today. So long and dangy that it made her look even shorter. =x Im not trying to make fun of it; just stating facts. Mich said that she USED to be slim. heh.
Geography was always boring. Why?? Beats me. I feel so energetic and concentrate for all other subjects except Geography. Bores the life out of me. =.='' Geography used to be so fun and interesting back in sec2.. Things do change uh.
SS was okay. I'm improving ok. so happy. =
School ended at 11 plus for me, but i still had to wait for him. Spent 1 hr plus sitting at the bus stop opposite my school. Nothing to do at all and the sun was shinning up high, and then suddenly, the sky turned dark. Things do change... :x

I love the cute bookmarks from MacDonalds. Saw it on the papers yesterday and I wanted to get all of them. But im kind of late. Missed the Hello Kitty ones. UrgHhhH. But nvm. I'd gotten the white one. So cute!! And I want the next 2...!! =D Im falling in love with Hello Kitty! hey, even my keychain is hello kitty. The cat without mouth. *gleee*

Shi Rui keep calling me Doraemon. =.= I have ears ok. TEDDY BEAR. lol. And Mich is the burnt Hello Kitty. haha.

Left`alone
10/03/2005 05:34:00 PM™